Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Lyme is what you HAVE, not who you ARE

The relationship between a host and its parasite isn't usually a complicated one.  Once the host becomes aware of its host status, it tries to eliminate the parasite, often with ease.  But having Lyme is waaay different, your 'parasite' doesn't just go away with a quick prescription and a few weeks.  If you have chronic Lyme, it's something that you have for a while....years usually. 

I struggle with the idea of mentally accepting the Lyme diagnosis, like I'm sure every single Lyme patient does.  On one hand, accepting it is good because then you have a target to shoot at (but then again that target is inside you, so...).  On the other hand, do you really want to create the mental space for the Lyme bug? After all, you're already giving it physical space.  Maybe you don't necessarily want to let it shack up in your mental energy either, most of that is already sucked out in coping with the loss of your work, school, social, even essential day-to-day tasks life. 

Making an energetically accepting attitude toward that Lyme bug might make it easier to stick around, maybe it will pick up on your 'it's ok that you're here' attitude and prolong its stay.  Yet, you can't always mentally be at war with your body's invaders....can you?

So.  How do you accept your infection while not accepting your infection?  Think of it like jail.  You don't want to be stuck in there with bad guys.  But you are.  You can tolerate them, but you don't wanna get too chummy.  Accepting the current situation is a good reality check, but just because you're locked up together doesn't mean you have to get too comfortable.  And remember that it's only a matter of time before you make bail and are free again.  All things are temporary. Plus, there's plenty you can do to ensure you get free, and that's the best part.